最近的心情

这几天不知怎么了。。 自从出成绩后，心里总是很不开心，很郁闷，很失望，很多烦恼蒋。。然后有时又独自关在房里不想跟家人说话，有时又有股冲动想大哭一场。。很多人都说我是开心果，但近来我想我已不再是了。。
我真的不知怎么会这样。。很痛苦。。哭时没人能在身旁安慰我。。这种感觉很寂寞，很可怜，好像全世界都不想再理睬你了。。就只剩你一个人面对一切。。也许这样也好吧，应该可以把我训练独立一点。。但有时我也想有个人可以听我诉苦，听我讲讲废话。。。但很可惜的，我身边的人都忙着他们身边的事，每人得空听我讲废话。。。
这几天我一直在向为什么我努力后的成绩还是如此的烂！唉。。 真的很失望很激心咯。。往往很多事都不如我们想象的一切如意。。。为什么呢？？！！ 天啊！！！难道你就不能可怜可怜我让我成功一次吗？？

My pre- birthday present

This year i've been received the earliest bday present.. Haha.. It was reli a big surprise for me, indeed..
Wen Dien gave me present dat moment i reli shocked for a few seconds den i felt reli happy cos i reli didn't think about it.. Haha.. Thanks a lot my dear friends!! I love u all...

Thank you very much.. I reli feel happy wen i received my present...


Besides that... My aunt oso gave me my bday present earlier on.. I oso felt reli happy wen i received it.. *Happy*

Sick...

Sigh.. Last wednesday.. I've been suffering from vomitting all the time..
Dunno y.. I jus keep vomitting rite after my meals.. Is it reli i gt anorexia??Or bcos of lack of sleep? Or the exam questions too difficult den i cnt stand the pressure? Dunno... No answer...
It was reli very suffering.. Jus imagine.. Everytime after eating den 10-15mins ltr u wil vomit all out.. WASTING!!! Sigh..
I had seek Doc n i gt take the medicine bt stil nt so effective n i'm stil vomit.. Bt it's less den never take medicine.. Hopefully i can recover soon.. :)

Sad case.. *Shake head*

Recently... I've proved 1 thing... 80% of boys are considered as PLAYBOY!!!
Lately.. i heard a case dat a couple jus broke their relationship n the reason is bcos the unfaithful+disloyal boy had fall in love with another gal.. How can the boy do this to his gf? I was jus curious wher hav been his loyalty gone?? The gal n the boy knew each other tru their fren.. They get together after a few months...  At the beginning they reli looked very sweet n happy to be with each other... They owas post their sweet photos at their blog ther.. However, 1day dat gal found dat her bf no longer love her anymore as he treated her very cold unlike las time treated her so gud.. Then they quarreled n everythings became worse.. Then they had been separated.. The gal found dat he fall in love with some1 else.. Dat boy explained dat they r jus fren.. Bt dat gal saw his bf's hp gt a pic wic captured dat boy kissed another gal's cheek.. I think this is ridiculous!!! Isn't they were happy to be with each other? How come.. How come this wil happen? How can dat mean fellow step on two ships at a same time?? He's having a gf ady y he stil wan to hav relationship with another gal?? Wouldn't he fell tire?? They jus broke their 4 years relationship by a ridiculous reason... 4 years relationship had been easily defeated by 4months relationship.. What a pity.. >.<
Actuali ther r stil more cases dat can prove boys r reli untrustful n disloyal ppl... *p/s: Nt all the boys la..=)*
Is it true that this world has no more gud male who is faithful to female? Wat a gal wants is jus the sense of security.. N wat boys nid to do is jus always stay bside gals n protect them oli.. Simple n easy.. Y boys cnt do it??? Sigh~

I cry... silently T.T

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To i never knew
I needed you so bad
You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell
Why did i ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew
Icry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause i know i'll never breathe your love
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
Cause i'm lonely as can be
If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard i try
Not to wonder why
I wish i could believe in something new
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true
I'll never be over you
If i could have you back tomorrow
If i could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see
You still love me

Being single~ ^^

Hehe... I reli do love being single cos i've disappointed to those ppl who owas say "I'll love u"4ever" or "v blongs 2gether" or etc... I've fed up listening this empty promises... Cos it's jus used to cheat those little gals oli as in reality dat guy wont reli can make it... N one day ltr he might come out some very awkward reasons like " My mom disagree our relationship" or "i think i nid 2 concentrate on my study n v nid 2 separate for a while" in order to break up their relationship... This is indeed a sad case.. This makes us, as a pity gal who owas look 4wards 4 their true love, feel disappointed to love n do not believe the beautiness of love anymore... Moreover these inferior + mean + abhor guys used to break these pity gals' hearts as they r jus inborn playboy... Girls cried bcos they feel it's a waste to break unreasonably as they reli 'love' each other 4 a period.. They've been paid out many things included their first bt at last those stupid guys stil break wit them n this indeed hurt as those naif gals reli thought they can b together 4ever jus like the fairy tales....
Lately ppl around me.. most of them r revolving with love.. Some were jus started n some were jus broke up (game over) ~.~
I think dat if one reli wanna involve in this love matter, he/she mus b reli serious wit it n dun jus think like wanna try or jus follow the trend as all the ppl r having n u oso wan.. This is indeed bad! If 4 me.. I'll wait until i meet the guy who i think i can rely on him n trustful.. I think this can reduce the chance 4 us to get hurt.. U kno.. Sometimes.. love failure indeed hurt.. It jus feel like u cnt live anymore after u break up wit him n u oso wil think of him all the time.. In a long term diseases like anorexia, depression n etc wil cum n to visit... Then his/her future wil b spoiled!! So sad~~!!
That's y i said "I enjoy being single cos it's simple"... Love can bring happiness n grief!!! Think well b4 u make any decisions... =)

我是【宅女】

欣蒂:" 我决定要变成宅女!!" ~ 很多人一定会很惊奇然后问我为什么, 我只能说因为.. 我也不知道, 我喜欢咯~ 哈哈哈   ｡◕‿◕｡我这类型的宅女并不是完全的宅女, 应该只有60%宅吧.. 哈哈哈.. 因为我发现我很享受呆在家的感觉, 不再喜欢出去逛街或饮茶了, 只想整天呆在家然后对着电脑而已...
成为了宅女后, 我也不再想与外界有任何接触了, 只想呆在自己的世界里享受独人世界.. 我所谓的接触是不想和他们SMS,聊天或一起出街.. 可是一旦我离开了我的电脑后我又会回到从前那个"吵闹"的我... 哈哈哈 XD
我曾经对我爸提过我想成为宅女的事,他似乎还蛮赞成的~~ 哈哈哈.. 他只是点点头然后说:"你要幸福哦...".. (好像有点不对台喔.. 哈哈), 他也强调说最重要是我不要被人骗就行了..
不知怎么的, 之从我有要当宅女的念头后, 我就变得怪怪的, 我变得不爱讲话了, 然后喜欢幻想了.. 我也爱上思考了!!! 我超爱幻想+思考+发白日梦.. 很喜欢躲在一旁然后静静地独自在思考..
很多朋友都说我变了.. 说我变安静了,眼神还不时透露出忧伤感.. 这是真的吗? = = "'  我自己可不这么认为噢.. 哈哈哈.. 或许我是真得变得比较沉默了吧, 但我还是很开心的过日子呀.. 并没有他们所谓的忧伤感或压力大而忧郁症啦.. 我还是很愉快地度过每一天呀, 只是最近有一点儿烦而已..
最后, 无论是宅女还是"吵女", 我还是我... =)