*女生A想对男生B说的话...*

不知怎么了...
最近对你的思念越来越浓厚了...
每天都在凝望着电话...
看看你线信息来了吗...
当发现电话没有新信息时...
心里会有一股酸酸的感觉...
想要主动线信息给你时又害怕你在忙...
又害怕你不回我信息...
我不了解为何会这样...
相信我们的感情还不到爱情呀...
自从你跟我说你们开始后...
你更少找我了...
心里莫名其妙的想起你了...
与你聊天让我觉得我们其实还蛮有默契的嘛...
好喜欢与你聊天的感觉...
最近你常与我说你和她的甜蜜事情...
我的心又不禁酸起来了...
为什么你要对我说你俩的事?
我并不想知道...
知道的越多就越嫉妒, 越伤心, 越没心情...
或许这一切都因我对你的依赖而起的吧...
当你寂寞时就找我陪伴...
如今你已不需要我了...
但你已在我的心里有了深深的烙印...
我体会到寂寞难耐的感觉了...
而寂寞时候又不知道该向谁谈心...
我相信时间可冲淡一切...
我会学着独立起来,不再依赖你了...
衷心在此祝福你俩也祝福我会过的更好的... ♥

*女生A想对男生B说的话...*

I'm back... :)

Hehe.. Long time didn't update my blog.. Hope you guys haven forget me.. XD
These few months i've been struggling hard preparing for my examinations... Sometimes.. I reli hope i can have a brilliant brain so dat i can sit for the exams easily... Hehe.. Bt i know it's impossible..!!! It's jus less then 8 weeks to STPM exam.. :S
That day.. I asked my friend wat do he/ she wanna do after the exam.. Some answered me dun kno, nt decide yet.. some answered me wanna go for a vacation or working... Suddenly i feel like everyone has their own plan bt nt me... I dunno wat to do after the exam.. Should i work or stay at home? Normally the answer will be working.. Bt another question pop out.. Wat work should i choose? Promotor? Waitress? Or go back to company to work as a small clerk like wat i did after my SPM... It's indeed annoying ppl.. Hate to make choices..!! >.<
Anyway.. Now focus on exam 1st.. After STPM + vacations den only decide wat to work la..Cheers :)

最近的心情

这几天不知怎么了。。 自从出成绩后，心里总是很不开心，很郁闷，很失望，很多烦恼蒋。。然后有时又独自关在房里不想跟家人说话，有时又有股冲动想大哭一场。。很多人都说我是开心果，但近来我想我已不再是了。。
我真的不知怎么会这样。。很痛苦。。哭时没人能在身旁安慰我。。这种感觉很寂寞，很可怜，好像全世界都不想再理睬你了。。就只剩你一个人面对一切。。也许这样也好吧，应该可以把我训练独立一点。。但有时我也想有个人可以听我诉苦，听我讲讲废话。。。但很可惜的，我身边的人都忙着他们身边的事，每人得空听我讲废话。。。
这几天我一直在向为什么我努力后的成绩还是如此的烂！唉。。 真的很失望很激心咯。。往往很多事都不如我们想象的一切如意。。。为什么呢？？！！ 天啊！！！难道你就不能可怜可怜我让我成功一次吗？？

My pre- birthday present

This year i've been received the earliest bday present.. Haha.. It was reli a big surprise for me, indeed..
Wen Dien gave me present dat moment i reli shocked for a few seconds den i felt reli happy cos i reli didn't think about it.. Haha.. Thanks a lot my dear friends!! I love u all...

Thank you very much.. I reli feel happy wen i received my present...


Besides that... My aunt oso gave me my bday present earlier on.. I oso felt reli happy wen i received it.. *Happy*

Sick...

Sigh.. Last wednesday.. I've been suffering from vomitting all the time..
Dunno y.. I jus keep vomitting rite after my meals.. Is it reli i gt anorexia??Or bcos of lack of sleep? Or the exam questions too difficult den i cnt stand the pressure? Dunno... No answer...
It was reli very suffering.. Jus imagine.. Everytime after eating den 10-15mins ltr u wil vomit all out.. WASTING!!! Sigh..
I had seek Doc n i gt take the medicine bt stil nt so effective n i'm stil vomit.. Bt it's less den never take medicine.. Hopefully i can recover soon.. :)

Sad case.. *Shake head*

Recently... I've proved 1 thing... 80% of boys are considered as PLAYBOY!!!
Lately.. i heard a case dat a couple jus broke their relationship n the reason is bcos the unfaithful+disloyal boy had fall in love with another gal.. How can the boy do this to his gf? I was jus curious wher hav been his loyalty gone?? The gal n the boy knew each other tru their fren.. They get together after a few months...  At the beginning they reli looked very sweet n happy to be with each other... They owas post their sweet photos at their blog ther.. However, 1day dat gal found dat her bf no longer love her anymore as he treated her very cold unlike las time treated her so gud.. Then they quarreled n everythings became worse.. Then they had been separated.. The gal found dat he fall in love with some1 else.. Dat boy explained dat they r jus fren.. Bt dat gal saw his bf's hp gt a pic wic captured dat boy kissed another gal's cheek.. I think this is ridiculous!!! Isn't they were happy to be with each other? How come.. How come this wil happen? How can dat mean fellow step on two ships at a same time?? He's having a gf ady y he stil wan to hav relationship with another gal?? Wouldn't he fell tire?? They jus broke their 4 years relationship by a ridiculous reason... 4 years relationship had been easily defeated by 4months relationship.. What a pity.. >.<
Actuali ther r stil more cases dat can prove boys r reli untrustful n disloyal ppl... *p/s: Nt all the boys la..=)*
Is it true that this world has no more gud male who is faithful to female? Wat a gal wants is jus the sense of security.. N wat boys nid to do is jus always stay bside gals n protect them oli.. Simple n easy.. Y boys cnt do it??? Sigh~

I cry... silently T.T

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To i never knew
I needed you so bad
You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell
Why did i ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew
Icry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause i know i'll never breathe your love
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
Cause i'm lonely as can be
If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard i try
Not to wonder why
I wish i could believe in something new
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true
I'll never be over you
If i could have you back tomorrow
If i could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see
You still love me

Being single~ ^^

Hehe... I reli do love being single cos i've disappointed to those ppl who owas say "I'll love u"4ever" or "v blongs 2gether" or etc... I've fed up listening this empty promises... Cos it's jus used to cheat those little gals oli as in reality dat guy wont reli can make it... N one day ltr he might come out some very awkward reasons like " My mom disagree our relationship" or "i think i nid 2 concentrate on my study n v nid 2 separate for a while" in order to break up their relationship... This is indeed a sad case.. This makes us, as a pity gal who owas look 4wards 4 their true love, feel disappointed to love n do not believe the beautiness of love anymore... Moreover these inferior + mean + abhor guys used to break these pity gals' hearts as they r jus inborn playboy... Girls cried bcos they feel it's a waste to break unreasonably as they reli 'love' each other 4 a period.. They've been paid out many things included their first bt at last those stupid guys stil break wit them n this indeed hurt as those naif gals reli thought they can b together 4ever jus like the fairy tales....
Lately ppl around me.. most of them r revolving with love.. Some were jus started n some were jus broke up (game over) ~.~
I think dat if one reli wanna involve in this love matter, he/she mus b reli serious wit it n dun jus think like wanna try or jus follow the trend as all the ppl r having n u oso wan.. This is indeed bad! If 4 me.. I'll wait until i meet the guy who i think i can rely on him n trustful.. I think this can reduce the chance 4 us to get hurt.. U kno.. Sometimes.. love failure indeed hurt.. It jus feel like u cnt live anymore after u break up wit him n u oso wil think of him all the time.. In a long term diseases like anorexia, depression n etc wil cum n to visit... Then his/her future wil b spoiled!! So sad~~!!
That's y i said "I enjoy being single cos it's simple"... Love can bring happiness n grief!!! Think well b4 u make any decisions... =)

我是【宅女】

欣蒂:" 我决定要变成宅女!!" ~ 很多人一定会很惊奇然后问我为什么, 我只能说因为.. 我也不知道, 我喜欢咯~ 哈哈哈   ｡◕‿◕｡我这类型的宅女并不是完全的宅女, 应该只有60%宅吧.. 哈哈哈.. 因为我发现我很享受呆在家的感觉, 不再喜欢出去逛街或饮茶了, 只想整天呆在家然后对着电脑而已...
成为了宅女后, 我也不再想与外界有任何接触了, 只想呆在自己的世界里享受独人世界.. 我所谓的接触是不想和他们SMS,聊天或一起出街.. 可是一旦我离开了我的电脑后我又会回到从前那个"吵闹"的我... 哈哈哈 XD
我曾经对我爸提过我想成为宅女的事,他似乎还蛮赞成的~~ 哈哈哈.. 他只是点点头然后说:"你要幸福哦...".. (好像有点不对台喔.. 哈哈), 他也强调说最重要是我不要被人骗就行了..
不知怎么的, 之从我有要当宅女的念头后, 我就变得怪怪的, 我变得不爱讲话了, 然后喜欢幻想了.. 我也爱上思考了!!! 我超爱幻想+思考+发白日梦.. 很喜欢躲在一旁然后静静地独自在思考..
很多朋友都说我变了.. 说我变安静了,眼神还不时透露出忧伤感.. 这是真的吗? = = "'  我自己可不这么认为噢.. 哈哈哈.. 或许我是真得变得比较沉默了吧, 但我还是很开心的过日子呀.. 并没有他们所谓的忧伤感或压力大而忧郁症啦.. 我还是很愉快地度过每一天呀, 只是最近有一点儿烦而已..
最后, 无论是宅女还是"吵女", 我还是我... =)

My lunch for 18/04/10

 Guess wat dish is this?

Deng Deng Deng~~~ Surprise!! It's actually a "Shark Fin soup"in it.. Its taste good.. XD

Look so nice.. But i can't eat cos i allergy of prawn.. >.<

Haha.. My favourite dish.. It's actually crab + glutinous rice.. Its creative n delicious~!! Haha

Yummy yummy~ ^^

Yarhooo~~ XD

LOL!! Mad of eating the crabs n do not caring my image.. >.<

Dessert.. :)
This is mango flavoured..

This is red-bean flavoured.. XD
This is nicer..
















Haha.. Wil my lunch consider a heavy lunch? Haha.. I think i've to exercise more to return my slim body.. Haha XD

Believe in Urself... :)

These few days i keep hearing people saying himself stupid n his friends all become more n more clever.. This make him feel tension n stress.. Actualy wat i trying 2 say here is.. Everybody oso clever n nobody is stupid.. I mean 4 the normal ppl la xcluded those OKU.. I'm so sorry 2 say that... Ppl who owas call themself stupid ones actuali r lazy, they reluctant 2 put any effort on their work.. I can guarantee if one reli put in a lot of effort then succeed is waiting 4 him in front... He dun hav to worry anymore.. Am i right??

Besides, v oso hav 2 believe in ourself.. Believe that v can n v able to do it!! =) Sometimes.. V mus believe that v r the clever ones n v manage 2 reach our goal.. V oso mus giv ourself confidence n do not keep looking down upon urself.. However, do not b over confidence n do not putting in any effort... In this case, failure wil oli wait us but nt succeed.. 

So.... Believe in urself as u can do it!!! :)

Suffering from... Sick T.T

Since las Sat , 10/04/10... I had a very suffering + hard period...Can u imagine dat i've 2 wake up in the midnite n go 2 toilet 2 vomit 4 nt oli 2 or 3 times bt at least 7 times??

Last Sat, our schol were having annual cross-country.. I've used up all my energy 2 run.. as fas as possible.. so dat i could chase after my friends who had ran so fas n left me far far away behind... Finally i finished wit my friend, Chee Yen.. :) Once i stopped, i felt my heart palpitated in an incredible rate n my shirt was drowned with sweat.. Sweat was trickling n dropping all over my body.. I could hardly 2 make 1 more move n nid some1 2 help me, if nt i think i might fainted on the field.. Cos dat moment i was reli tire n it was my 3rd time having this type of long run competition.. I guess this is the reason i gt my asthma come bac 2 find me.. >.<

After schol i went out wit my friends n the air-cond continuous blowing us.. N v r stil wearing dat sweaty+smelly shirt.. Thus this make me caught cold ady.. Nt even this.. At nite, I went out wit my families 4 family gathering n v went 2 drink beer after dinner.. This was the 1st time i drank "snow beer".. It's 1 type of beer cup wich put in the fridge 4 a long period so dat it's cool, n once u pour beer into it, it wil b having foam n considered as the nicest part.. I've drank 2 cups.. After few minutes, i felt my whole body was distributing heat n my face bcame red red like a tomato.. (slowly + without noticeable)..Dat time.. I oli realised dat i reli drunk n i wan 2 go home..

The next day.. Once i woke up i felt my whole body was critical pain n gt abit fever+cough.. My mum quickly asked me 2 take some medicines.. Bt i stil felt nt well n tire.. I jus lied on the bedn waited 4 time pass.. Finally at nite.. My condition bcame worse.. I gt fever+asthma+flu+cough wit a lot phleam.. I endured until the next morning.. My dad immediately brought me to see doc.. After having my treatment, I felt better bt stil very weak n i gt no enough energy 2 walk.. I've 2 walk 2 steps n stop a while den oli continue my nex 2 steps until i reach my final destiations.. I oso no energy 2 talk muc 2 any1 so i chose 2 slp..

Luckily i've heal now bt 2day i participated in a netball competition n once again i felt like wanna faint... N of cos asthma came bac again.. Sigh.. It's very lucky 2 hav my friends bside me as they tried 2 comfort me once they saw me looked different.. I reli felt thankful 2 them n oso thank god 4 giving me another chance 2 continue my life..

I reli hope dat i can recover soon as i wan 2 succeed in my academic in a very good health wic can support me all the time.. :)

It's difficult to decide laa~~!!

Lately... I'm hesitating about "should i continue or stop my piano lesson?"....

It's very hard 4 me to concentrate on my academic & piano at the same time.. As some of u might know dat every Wed i've 2 stay bac at schol until 5pm den after that i've 2 rush bac n prepare 2 go 4 my piano lesson.. It is very tire n it's repeated every week!! Moreover after my piano class i've 2 go bac home n do my homework or do my revision as this is a very critical year 4 our form 6 students..

But...  If i stop now den it would b a waste as i've been learning 4 a long time ady n yet haven reach the ideal grade.. Learning piano actuali is my own interest n it's oso very relaxing.. I like 2 attend my piano class bt NT 4 THE EXAM EVE PERIOD... Cos teacher wil force us 2 do as many practice as v can.. I wil b stressed up n nt feel like wanna continue 2 learn ady.. Haha

So any1 can give me some recommend so that i can kno wat should i do... Should i continue or stop?? >.<

Heart broke... :'(

24/03/10... I started my day happily bt end sadly... This morning i felt damn excited as finally i saw him... He's stil look the same n walking 2 his clas while v r having our daily assembly.. I saw him n again, my sight jus focused on him bt not other places or ppl.. Haha XD.. I enjoyed looking at him.. So now can u imagine how attractive he is?

Bt the happiness jus lasted until around 10:45pm oli... As i realised that he's actually in a relationship wit another girl.. It's a bad news 4 me indeed..  Automatically my tears dropped down n dropped on my hand.. It's very sad as it meant that i got no more chance adi.. After that i oso found her gf's profile.. There's a folder named "Valentine 2010", i clicked it then i saw their valentine's gift.. They had a very sweet valentine day..

By the way.. I wish them happy forever.. I oso heard somebody said b4 that "although u love some1 bt it's not necessary to be with him/her".. :)

Me + Yih Shan ·.¸¸·´¯`·.¸¸.ஐ

Simply simply captured in a restaurant b4 v hav our meals n movie~... Hehe XD

Is tht call ⓛⓞⓥⓔ ❤??

Lately.... I fall in love wit some1 mentally.. Haha.. XD Although v nvr chat or say hi 2 each other bt i jus can't stop thinking bout him.. Haha.. Is this call ❤ LOVE ❤?? 

Dunno y.. Everytime when i go 2 schol i wil hope 2 c him.. I will look around n c whether is he around..? Am i silly..?? As v nvr kno each other n v jus seen each other twice oli.. o(︶︿︶)o

All wat i kno bout him is.. he is SMALLER than me..!!! = ="' I think he's jus in form 5 this year... (It's quite weird 4 sumbody bt it's ok 4 me as my mom oso elder than my dad..) He gt a very nice + perfect body shape as he used 2 go gym centre.. ｡◕‿-｡ I remember the 1st sight i looked at him, i jus cnt move my sight 2 another else.. Haha.. He succeed attracted me n made me kept looking at him without blinking my eyes.. It's sound so funny 4 u all.. Bt it's truth.. At last.. Dat boy realised i looked at him, then he looked bac at me in the same way how i looked him...  o(≧o≦)o Then.... Is dat time... V looked at each other.. I could feel my heartbeat palpitated at an incredible rate n the world felt like stopped at that moment!! Hehee.. I've nvr hav this feel b4.. The feel is jus like "情窦初开".. Ahahahahaaa.. I felt very happy at that moment as he finally realised my presence.. Hahaha

Btw... I think i jus dare 2 tel out my feelings here as i scare he might a gf already or mayb i'm nt his cup of tea.. I scare being reject by him if i reli dare 2 ask him.. I scare he might nt dat gd as what i imagined.. For ur opinion, wat do u think i should do? 4get bout him? Or keep like-ing him secrectly? *∩_∩*

* Love always make people blur + blind~~~ *

I make it all by myself.. :)

Hehe.. How is it?? Nice? I made this 4 my mommy 1.. Haha XD

This 1 i jus made it 4 fun oli.. Hehe.. If got ppl wan den i giv her/him la..

This 1 jus simply simply made.. Cos 2 free ady.. Haha.. So it's nt so nice.. Bt it oso took me half an hour 2 make...

Hehe.. Lately i fall in love wit making this cards.. If gt any1 interested or like it can tel me,den i can make 1 2 her/him.. Hehe..

Pretty VS Adorable (-'_'-)'"

Pretty = pleasing or attractive to the eye, as by delicacy or gracefulness...

Adorable = very pleasing, cute & loveable...

Normally ppl used 2 describe a  girl who is >16 years as pretty girl while girl who is 16 years old or & 16 described as adorable girl (cute)..

But in my case.. I've stil been described as adorable girl though i'm 19 years old already.. It's quite sad 4 me as i felt dat i'm totally nt changing at all thru these years n my look is stil like a CHILD!!!! {{{(>_<)}}}

Every1 bside me r jus growing up n bcuming more mature n pretty or even sexy~~~ *(◕‿◕)*

I feel like being compared 2 them n i jus look like a child in anyway...When i go out with my friends or family, every1 oso think that i'm the youngest.. Bsides they oso always treat me like a little child... Actually it's hurt!!!

Y they jus cant't care bout my feeling?? Though i can 4giv them as i kno they dun have 2  face these problems..

Actually i dislike ppl describe me cute.. It's jus like teasing me as i look so CHILDISH!!!! Everytime i hear ppl describe me cute, my heart HURTS!!! I like ppl describe me PRETTY!!! I dun wan cute laa!!!! Cos it's jus nt suit 4 our age anymore... Btw... after all...I've cool down n think.. Actually i dun hav any pretty symbols bt all its jus adorable symbols... Plus i oso used 2 hear that word (cute) ady so i won't blaim them anymore jus can try 2 think optimistic a bit.. Jus think that i look cute oso nt bad as i'll owas look very young all the time until i get old oso look very young.. Hehe.. =)

It's me!!!

Ahahaha... Form 4 look...

I think this pic took in form 5.. Hehe.. Fren 4ever~

 

 LOL.. Tuition time~~ It's break time!! Let's say yeah~~!!

Haha... Short hair~~~

                                                                                                                            

 

Long hair ady~~ :)

 

Long LOng LONG hair~~~ Hehe XD

 

 During CNY... 100 PLUS!!!

*Hehe... It's me.. Seems like ntg change throughout these years~ XD*

请别伤害脆弱的心!!

            从前从前.. 有个女生患上了自闭症自从被他的男友劈腿。。她的心被伤得太重了。。因为那个男生对她说了一句很伤她的话：“我已顶不顺你了，因为看到你的样，我就会想到要快点能找到新的对象，因为我已受不了你了。。这不是我的错是你逼我的。。请不要怪我~~” 这女生的心被伤透了毕竟这是她的初恋。。她完全没有想过那男生会如此的残忍的丢下那几句话后就离开她了。。而从那一天她就不再相信爱情了。。因她太伤心了,不久后就患上了自闭症。。每当她一看到陌生人时就会避到远远的。。像是看到怪物似的。。她也很少和人说话除 了她身边一直支持她的姊妹们。。可怜的她~~
             经过了几年的辅导以及治疗，她终于从自闭症走出来了。。也转身变了一名美女，成为每个人心中的女神。。 不知是天意还是巧合，她遇回了当年恨心抛下她的那个男友并且他还向那女生要求一个复合的机会。。那女生其实还是很爱那男生的,毕竟那是她的初恋嘛 。。她犹豫她该接受回他吗?或许他已改过自新了吧? 也许她也该给个机会给他还有她自己。。结果那女生接受他了。。虽然前段时期他们是很甜蜜。。但很可惜的, 这男生始终改不了他的劈腿习惯。。不久后又再一次的伤害了这个女生的心。。 结果那女生也想不开吃安眠药自杀死掉了。。而那个男生也成了全城共愤。。当然他自己也很后悔一次又一次的伤害了这个女生。。而且他也没想过他的所作所为会有这么大的影响力, 足以让那女生伤心至自杀死。。
* 所以说男生啊~ 如果你选者了她就要好好的爱她, 保护她, 成为她的另一个"爸爸"让她永远都放心靠在你身旁。。* :)

全新的我！！

5/3/2010。。。 我开始了全新的生活。。 也换掉了我的'人生口号'-----做任何事情都要对自己有信心,要靠自己!!

以前的我都太任性了.. 什么事情都很依赖家人或朋友们.. 我知道这样下去是行不通的,所以我决定要对我自己有信心点,然后就会学着独立了..
过去的我每天都过得太无意思了.. 好像每天都活在他人的影子下, 因为每天都做着和别人一样的事情.. 毫无自己的风格!! 我讨厌这样的自己啊!!!!!! 所以我现在正很努力的寻找自己.. 当然我不是说完全不需要朋友的帮忙, 只是想说或许我能够完成一些事情在没有朋友的帮忙之下... 这样我才能够尝试到那种靠自己的快感吧~ 哈哈 :)
无论如何.. 我都很感谢这么久以来帮过我的人.. 谢谢他们给我的,帮助,关怀,爱,还有很多很多啊!! 总之就谢谢他们啦!!!
因为有她们我才会有今天的我... 嘻嘻嘻 :)